spinning

I went to an ol' school chum's house today. 5 of us. then four. then three. With each departure the conversation got more intimate. A marital breakdown. A persisting negative body image. A longing for renewed intimacy.
Do you ever spin? asked M. Sometimes just moving helps shut up your mind and break the rut.
within 5 minutes she had the 3 of us giggling and wiggling and wagging our tongues. getting rid of the pent up energies, shutting up the busy brain that always says "yes But" to the kid, getting out of breath to feel alive.

Another friend spoke about how she explored the saying Spinning your tires. It's something she does a lot. Race car drivers do it so the wheels grip better and this means they'll go faster. She was relieved that what was perceived as a negative had a function. It became more bearable.

spinning a yarn and telling a story.

In my dream I was trying to capture the right light and adjust the lens so that I could photograph the spider webs. Webs the spiders had spun.

new moon

New moon is the time to unburden our hearts, to tell our secrets, our faillings. We tell them in the darkness. We tell them to the Darkness. She takes them in, absorbes them, makes manure for the compost so that new things will grow or good things will grow strong.
I was wondering when it would be time to put up the new alter. The new cycle beginning seemed like the right time for a clean slate. I cleared and cleaned the altar space today. Washed the window. Spider is still alive. I disturbed her from her dreamtime. The rotting and rotten apples have moved to the garden under the peonie bush. In minus 26 degree temperatures they'll be preserved untill Spring! The ants will have something to nibble on when they awake from their slumber. Do ants slumber?
Dream catcher hangs where its maker hung it. I burned awarness and sage and healing. I burned black candle to collect and purify negativity, green for love and forgiveness, red for strength and courage. Yule is the time to make magick for children's health.

midnight insight

My son's voice woke me
thunder and flashing lightnight (electric weather fronts clashing)
in time to catch the dream
in time to hear the answer to the question
I'd posed Bear the night before.

I am the one who helps find
a way
a part
a solution
a voice
a vocation
a comfort
an ear
time, direction, trust, acceptance, love

that is my purpose
Finding.



Dream
Backwards

Up back thru the scaffolding (daffodils)
Lester is Marjorie as a man he
has bad needs I mean knees.
He gets down on one to help me over
I scold him lovingly

A little girl in a program that we adopt
(adopt a highway)
Tingley and Sheppard tell me about her

Food from the instabank machine
food from the Teller

Warm Tuna or Salmon Salad sandwiches
Some days better than others